Back Again Then Gone Again

Hello to my loyal reader(s?). Sorry for the lack of updates since camp I have actually had a few ideas to write about but never got around to taking them from head to keyboard. I went to camp to weekends ago which was a fun experience, not the experience that I was expecting but that is another post for another time about assuming and expecting when dealing with hearing the voice of God.
So I am back once again and getting ready to leave for wonderful Camp Awana for Solid Ice. Solid Ice is the co-ed high school winter weekend that Camp holds as sort of a half way point for the kids who hit up Solid Rock during the summer. I'm looking forward to a fun weekend, good worship, and usually a really good football game. This will only be my 3rd time being a leader at Awana, last year's SI was my first experience and I wasn't ready for it. This year I hope to spend more time in prep prayer and reading. I am really excited for the trip up there as I get a few hours alone in the car to just pray and worship as I drive.
Last night cemented in my mind that I have the coolest job. Tuesday nights is our Junior High Youth Group night. Our activity for the night involved running around the gym while dodging 17 screaming flying monkeys. Yes, you read that right. Flying monkeys and junior high kids. BALLER! We had so much fun last night. I really am trule blessed.
When I decided to not go directly into seminary I knew that I wanted to do something of service for the year I would be taking off. I almost left for New Orleans but I decided to stay home and be with family (something I don't do enough of interestingly). This year I have become TimtheIntern and it has been a blast for me. I really have no idea what lies ahead for me once my internship is over. I don't know if its school, or work, or Chicago or not. I know that I need to be taking steps and trusting that God is going to open and close doors for me but I so far have been too overwhelmed and terrified to do anything. But even with all of that happening even with my year being very open and unplanned I know that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. I am where I am supposed to be. I'm doing the best I can to serve God with the position I have.
Psalm 37:4-5 says "Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD, trust also in HIm, and He shall bring it to pass." WOW. These verse really speak to me. DELIGHT YOURSELF ALSO IN THE LORD, I really enjoy the internship. I enjoy playin with the kids, I enjoy being a part of the staff. I have really loved these last few months, its a fun gig. AND HE SHALL GIVE YOU THE DESIRES OF YOUR HEART I'm interested to see what God shows me is the desire of my heart. I think he knows better than me. And I think that plays a lot into what this upcoming year will look like. COMMIT YOUR WAY TO THE LORD...I'm a sinner saved by grace. I think that's enough explination. TRUST IN HIM, AND HE SHALL BRING IT TO PASS: I don't always trust Him, I know He'll take care of me, it tells me RIGHT THERE! And yet I can't let myself trust Him. I'm scared to go out on a limb like that. I gotta.